Overall, 2010 has been both the best year of my life, and at the same time, the worst.
The first half of 2010 was about average. I was doing well in school, I had a couple close friends who I really enjoyed being with, I was single, and things were just mellow. Life was life. Average and repetitive.
Around March or April, I kind of ditched my group of friends. So much was going on in their lives that I just needed to get away. It was stressful and since my life was so mellow, I wanted to enjoy it and not be affected by other peoples' problems around me. I started sitting at an entirely different table at lunch. One that consisted completely of guys and my brother. It was nice. I would just listen to their conversations and they would just be so average. Talk about video games and arguments on specific topics would be commonly heard. There were hardly any conversations involving other people and rumors. Hardly any talk of problems at home or conflicts with people. And although I wasn't entirely comfortable at that table just yet, I felt like it was a really nice place to be and I wanted to be there.
As I sat at the table, I eventually got to know some of the people a lot better. I knew some of them, but not very well. They all turned out to be really cool people. Towards the end of April and the beginning of May, I became friends with one of the people who sat there, Eli. He and I turned out to have a lot of the same interests and we got along great. We eventually added each other on Facebook and messaged each other all the time.
Over the summer, my best friend Katie left for June and July to visit family in New York. Outside of school I usually don't hang out with anyone except Katie. So I was stuck at home with the exception of a 4 day school trip to UNR. I was on the computer everyday and, most of the time, Eli was too. We talked about everything. It was so nice. He eventually confessed he had feelings for me and I told him that I couldn't return those feelings. We continued talking after that though. We even went to the movies once in Vegas. Unfortunately, it was awkward though.
Towards the end of July, Katie returned and I was determined to make up for the time she was gone. I started spending multiple nights at her house at a time. Eli and I were still talking and I thought it was a good idea to invite him over to Katie's house, to try to fix the awkward time spent in Vegas. So one day, we met up at the public pool and all came back to Katie's house afterwards. It was all together good fun and after Eli went home, I realized that I had developed feelings for him. I told him through a Facebook message later that day. Classic, right?
After that Eli and I started hanging almost everyday. I liked him more and more and on August 27, he asked me out. It was nice. It still is nice. He is the most caring, insightful, understanding person I have ever met. He has made my year. He has helped me through all the hardships, I've had for the last four months. I'm so entirely grateful that I get to end my 2010 with Eli, and start my 2011 with him too.
School then started in September. It was entirely different from last year. I was taking five honors classes AND I had a boyfriend on top of that. I thought it would be a lot harder than it was though. I had to focus a tad more on my grades, but besides that, no worries. We hung out after school and on weekends and it was amazing. We went to homecoming together, and to football games. I also got voted into one of Gamer club's representative positions. Everything was perfect
On October 18th, I got arrested.
My mom and I had gotten into a fight and she grabbed me and I attempted to remove her off of me. She ended up slamming my head into the ground and causing it to swell. I called the cops. Apparently, if a parent is beating the shit out of you in Pahrump you have to let them beat the shit out of you or get charged with a felony. That's exactly what happened to me. I got put on sixty days of house arrest and am currently awaiting my court date in January.
I couldn't use the phone, Internet, have people over, go places without my parents, text, or basically live. I was stuck in my house to just think. It drove me mad. My emotions were up and down. One minute I would be totally optimistic about my situation, then next I would be crying myself to sleep and giving up. I couldn't talk to anyone about all that happened on top of it. I missed all of the Gamer Club meetings due to classes I had to take after school. My life quality was probably the lowest it's ever been at that moment.
The after school classes turned out to be a big help. I'm still attending them for a few more weeks. Overall, they helped me handle the situation. They gave me tips on what to do when certain things happen at home and gave me a more positive outlook on the whole situation. I also made some great friends and got out of the house several times a week.
On December 17th, I got off house arrest. After school, I hung out with Eli immediately. It was a relief. I was terrified about what house arrest was going to do to our relationship and to know that it was over now was a big worry taken off my back. December 17th was also the start of Winter Break and I've been hanging out with friends ever since.
All of the troubles that came with being arrested aren't entirely over yet, but they almost are. I'm still afraid of what is to come, but right now I'm going to live up the good times and not worry about what's gonna happen. I mean, its a new year right? Aren't we suppose to be optimistic about it and appreciate the good times. Its a time for reflecting and changing, for the better.
Happy New Year, everyone!
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